Maybe that is me getting older. I sometime describe being in this world is like under the yoke. There is some power controlling over it if you can see through the mist. So many things and idols in the world for us to pursue however they all come down to sacrifice your time, money and your whole life. In the end I still feel vain and nothing. I’m now working 7 days a week, Mon to Sun and there goes the cycle. 5 days in Avecia Biotech and 2 days in Greggs. My collegs have been wonderful and I’m now earning billions for the company. They appreciate me and I should be content. Please don’t get me wrong that I’m sad. I just want to know my answer to my wondering thought. People ask why don’t you find sometime for yourself or work less? To be honest I want to but it’s just not yet. Then I start thinking there must be a purpose to live. If I have a great job, husband and a family will I be content? I guess my answer is still no. Am I too greedy? No either. Then why is this? What else do I want to feel content?

I have a great friend. I imitate him a lot because with life he seems to enjoy himself so much. I get myself to enjoy things and start building up interest still deep down I know I’m faking. That’s because the very next day I find this feeling back again. Gosh! I so want to know what is that. Has the mist been too thick to see? Has I missed something from life that I supposed to know and pursue?

I have just come back from BBaloysia’s blog. By reading what she wrote makes me reflect about my depth of knowledge. People says you are what you eat and input is always equal to output which I think that is quite true. I do admire BBaloysia’s sense like how she can talk for so many things e.g. from a very old movie, music, book etc up to an ethical debate. However I believe getting to know a thing is never impossible because our world is information loaded. Or maybe is possible if that thing never appears. Haha …

Anyway what is mattered should because of that person’s interest. I realise anything you will do or happy doing all come down to your interest. BBaloysia must have such a wide interest, effort and time until she’s capable of knowing and talk about them. For me… I have the interest and like to know but never take the effort to find out.

 I’m not here to promote her site but just to express my own disappointment in incompetency for general knowledge. Maybe this will be one of the thing I will pursue if I live until 200 yrs old.

I’m a very bad blogger OK. All my readers have gone. I’m now starting up again. Please keep support my space. I love you all….

Well this is what people will normally write. What they have been doing when they’re not writing. Here goes mine.

I was battling through my final year exams and assignments.

Then I’m back to Avecia where I did my one year internship.

Now I am still living in Newcastle and also working for Greggs.

Few more weeks later I will have my graduation and a trip in a motorhome with my family.

I just know a group of funny people. So funny that I hv to mentioned his name here….Mike… blessed him… I hope a relationship with the other friend of his he likes to tease may work out…since I think they r so what I want to c from a couple… unless I’m blind.

Check out our motorhome: